So appreciate the cutting edge, current info you're providing here.
Moderna #1 & #2 recipient. Was fine for almost two years and then Bell's Palsy melted the left side of my face as I sat at my computer one evening. I felt it happening and I've never been so freaked out as when I finally became annoyed eno…
So appreciate the cutting edge, current info you're providing here.
Moderna #1 & #2 recipient. Was fine for almost two years and then Bell's Palsy melted the left side of my face as I sat at my computer one evening. I felt it happening and I've never been so freaked out as when I finally became annoyed enough to go and have a look at the irritating "feelings" in my face. As I looked in the bathroom mirror in absolute horror, my face actually fell a tiny bit more and I thought I really thought I was losing my mind! I ran to the bedroom and grabbed my sleeping wife and was yelling at her, "Do you see anything wrong with my face?" over and over. She turned on the bedside lamp and her went wide as saucers and her mouth fell wide open while she just stared and said nothing. A wave of overwhelming nausea followed by what I imagine was a severe panic attack and she was yelling, "You're having a stroke, oh my god, where's my phone?" and ran out of the bedroom.
Three hours later, the ER doctor diagnosed Bell's Palsy with an onset caused by the "Zoster" something or other, "Shingles Virus" he had mentioned as he was distractedly doing everything, but giving any sort of straight answer besides "go to your PCP asap and follow up with treatment regimen after completing the steroidal, eye drop and some other thing he didn't explain which turned out to be an extremely confusing dosing schedule that I had to do my own research to understand. (Incidentally, I learned from said research that my immune system would be completely shut down during the course of the cortical steroid prescribed which in hindsight seemed a very stupid thing to do with Covid supposedly running amok through the entire world!)
Here's where my vaccine education began: Upon making an appointment with my PCP, which was initially scheduled for three and a half weeks later, I had to be in full swing "doctoral road rage" and verbally menacing through their online messaging system, quoting risks due to untimely treatment of Bell's Palsy and promising extreme civil and criminal action before they rescheduled me for the next morning! Unfortunately, early the next morning a couple of hours before my appointment, my doctor replied to my messages where I went into length about my thoughts and concerns about my condition being vaccine related. (I had found a website entitled, "How Bad Is My Batch," where a godsend of a man had managed to get his hands on the complete VAERS reports thus far and so used them to create a sort of spreadsheet-like data field listing the vaccine injuries being reported thus far in relation to the batch number as reported. I had immediately noticed there were an enormous number of batch numbers and then with a dread I've never experienced before looked on in absolute horror at the tens of thousands of reported injuries and the very high number of types of injuries that detailed at least four or five different biological systems that to me seemed obvious there should be no relationship to each other. It's still up, though it's had many problems remaining so over the years. It's a clear look at the callousness of what has been perpetrated upon humanity by these supposed human beings claiming to share our species!) And this was the second of the "one-two-punch" delivered that day. He had been very vague in his responses, then told me to "hold off" on coming to my appointment until I received his next, soon to arrive message.
Twenty minutes later I opened his next message and was formally informed that I was "kicked out" of his medical group, would not be seen for my current, ongoing treatment at any of their clinics or labs and I was also banned from the entire local hospital system and services! My online access to my medical records was being revoked as I was reading his message, and the most unbelievable part of his message was the reasons listed why such extreme actions were being taken. My doctor stated that I was personally violent, threatening, mentally unstable and that he felt very unsafe in my presence with a few more choice adjectives added I would have thought reserved for psychotic and unstable felons at their parole hearings!
It took me a whole day to realize that I no longer had access to prescriptions I was strictly not supposed to just stop taking for any reason and in 3-4 days I would be doing just that! I have never been so terrified in my life, I was in a panic and just did the thing I knew from work... Research, research and more research! I couldn't believe what I was finding and where I had to find it. I actually had a couple different nurses and one doctor direct me to install a VPN and then contact them at what turned out to be their personal web pages and blogs. Bless their caring, loving hearts! They shared what was happening, but could offer no reasoning behind it. They thought it was insane and related that it wasn't just here in America. The entire world ha gone off the rails and all medical personnel were being threatened, physically threatened, to do what they were told lest they wind up patients themselves! The entire world had just been yanked out from under my feet and they had planned well when to do it, I was without a clue or hope and everything I ever knew and trusted - even my country! - became very dark, dangerous and surreal! For weeks I lost myself in the internet looking for any glimmer of hope anywhere.
After some weeks and finding very little on what one could "do" to help themselves, my wife had developed that certain look I had seen in other's, but never once in her lovely eyes. A few more weeks of my actual disassociation from civilization and retreat to the internet which was beginning to yield some actionable information and a couple new and so very needed friendly and supportive voices in the late night chat rooms where we all admitted to one another we felt sure was our only hope at returning to any sort of sane version of our former lives, and it was absolutely undeniable, she was sure I'd fallen off my precarious perch, descending rapidly into the abyss of total insanity! I couldn't blame her, it "was/is" absolutely nuts to think something like this could happen, never mind trying to convince another who hadn't taken the vaccine due to her doctor's denial for complications too great to warrant the risks. How do you convince someone who's doctor is seemingly protecting her from the very things I'm accusing them all of conspiring to have done to me? In less than six months our marriage of twenty-four years was summarily ended with scowls and derisive looks from all in attendance. She wasn't cruel or vindictive, but just cold and distant. I thought I would die right there upon hearing the pronouncement. It hit me like a shotgun right in the chest and I burst out, wailing a horrific, sobbing "No!" followed by free-range balling like a baby that totally freaked out the entire court room to the point I was escorted out and advised to not loiter, harass or otherwise lose my mind near their edifice of utter sanity and orderly conduct!
I'm not proud of this, but as he was admonishing me, I was locked onto his sidearm and actually feeling relief at the thought of one or two bullets ending all the unbearable pain and... "Hey! You're strong.
They're dying.
Everyday.
Alone.
Scared.
They'll listen."
He handed me a card.
"You're team leader.
Y'all got ambushed.
Regroup.
Triage.
Counter offensive.
Bring em home!"
I was thinking how crazy it was that all the men in my family going back to WWI fought in wars, some in multiple! Except me. I was born of war, but couldn't go.
I was at my lowest point, ready to give up and disgrace my family!
A soldier appears with my war, my team and my orders!
I always hated the idea of modern warfare with no clearly defined bad guys.
I mean, I was raised by veterans of WWII, Korea and Vietnam!
Imagine if Covid hadn't occurred as it did, we would not have this otherwise impossible opportunity to wage this war against honest to god Evil-Axis-Baddies.
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So appreciate the cutting edge, current info you're providing here.
Moderna #1 & #2 recipient. Was fine for almost two years and then Bell's Palsy melted the left side of my face as I sat at my computer one evening. I felt it happening and I've never been so freaked out as when I finally became annoyed enough to go and have a look at the irritating "feelings" in my face. As I looked in the bathroom mirror in absolute horror, my face actually fell a tiny bit more and I thought I really thought I was losing my mind! I ran to the bedroom and grabbed my sleeping wife and was yelling at her, "Do you see anything wrong with my face?" over and over. She turned on the bedside lamp and her went wide as saucers and her mouth fell wide open while she just stared and said nothing. A wave of overwhelming nausea followed by what I imagine was a severe panic attack and she was yelling, "You're having a stroke, oh my god, where's my phone?" and ran out of the bedroom.
Three hours later, the ER doctor diagnosed Bell's Palsy with an onset caused by the "Zoster" something or other, "Shingles Virus" he had mentioned as he was distractedly doing everything, but giving any sort of straight answer besides "go to your PCP asap and follow up with treatment regimen after completing the steroidal, eye drop and some other thing he didn't explain which turned out to be an extremely confusing dosing schedule that I had to do my own research to understand. (Incidentally, I learned from said research that my immune system would be completely shut down during the course of the cortical steroid prescribed which in hindsight seemed a very stupid thing to do with Covid supposedly running amok through the entire world!)
Here's where my vaccine education began: Upon making an appointment with my PCP, which was initially scheduled for three and a half weeks later, I had to be in full swing "doctoral road rage" and verbally menacing through their online messaging system, quoting risks due to untimely treatment of Bell's Palsy and promising extreme civil and criminal action before they rescheduled me for the next morning! Unfortunately, early the next morning a couple of hours before my appointment, my doctor replied to my messages where I went into length about my thoughts and concerns about my condition being vaccine related. (I had found a website entitled, "How Bad Is My Batch," where a godsend of a man had managed to get his hands on the complete VAERS reports thus far and so used them to create a sort of spreadsheet-like data field listing the vaccine injuries being reported thus far in relation to the batch number as reported. I had immediately noticed there were an enormous number of batch numbers and then with a dread I've never experienced before looked on in absolute horror at the tens of thousands of reported injuries and the very high number of types of injuries that detailed at least four or five different biological systems that to me seemed obvious there should be no relationship to each other. It's still up, though it's had many problems remaining so over the years. It's a clear look at the callousness of what has been perpetrated upon humanity by these supposed human beings claiming to share our species!) And this was the second of the "one-two-punch" delivered that day. He had been very vague in his responses, then told me to "hold off" on coming to my appointment until I received his next, soon to arrive message.
Twenty minutes later I opened his next message and was formally informed that I was "kicked out" of his medical group, would not be seen for my current, ongoing treatment at any of their clinics or labs and I was also banned from the entire local hospital system and services! My online access to my medical records was being revoked as I was reading his message, and the most unbelievable part of his message was the reasons listed why such extreme actions were being taken. My doctor stated that I was personally violent, threatening, mentally unstable and that he felt very unsafe in my presence with a few more choice adjectives added I would have thought reserved for psychotic and unstable felons at their parole hearings!
It took me a whole day to realize that I no longer had access to prescriptions I was strictly not supposed to just stop taking for any reason and in 3-4 days I would be doing just that! I have never been so terrified in my life, I was in a panic and just did the thing I knew from work... Research, research and more research! I couldn't believe what I was finding and where I had to find it. I actually had a couple different nurses and one doctor direct me to install a VPN and then contact them at what turned out to be their personal web pages and blogs. Bless their caring, loving hearts! They shared what was happening, but could offer no reasoning behind it. They thought it was insane and related that it wasn't just here in America. The entire world ha gone off the rails and all medical personnel were being threatened, physically threatened, to do what they were told lest they wind up patients themselves! The entire world had just been yanked out from under my feet and they had planned well when to do it, I was without a clue or hope and everything I ever knew and trusted - even my country! - became very dark, dangerous and surreal! For weeks I lost myself in the internet looking for any glimmer of hope anywhere.
After some weeks and finding very little on what one could "do" to help themselves, my wife had developed that certain look I had seen in other's, but never once in her lovely eyes. A few more weeks of my actual disassociation from civilization and retreat to the internet which was beginning to yield some actionable information and a couple new and so very needed friendly and supportive voices in the late night chat rooms where we all admitted to one another we felt sure was our only hope at returning to any sort of sane version of our former lives, and it was absolutely undeniable, she was sure I'd fallen off my precarious perch, descending rapidly into the abyss of total insanity! I couldn't blame her, it "was/is" absolutely nuts to think something like this could happen, never mind trying to convince another who hadn't taken the vaccine due to her doctor's denial for complications too great to warrant the risks. How do you convince someone who's doctor is seemingly protecting her from the very things I'm accusing them all of conspiring to have done to me? In less than six months our marriage of twenty-four years was summarily ended with scowls and derisive looks from all in attendance. She wasn't cruel or vindictive, but just cold and distant. I thought I would die right there upon hearing the pronouncement. It hit me like a shotgun right in the chest and I burst out, wailing a horrific, sobbing "No!" followed by free-range balling like a baby that totally freaked out the entire court room to the point I was escorted out and advised to not loiter, harass or otherwise lose my mind near their edifice of utter sanity and orderly conduct!
I'm not proud of this, but as he was admonishing me, I was locked onto his sidearm and actually feeling relief at the thought of one or two bullets ending all the unbearable pain and... "Hey! You're strong.
They're dying.
Everyday.
Alone.
Scared.
They'll listen."
He handed me a card.
"You're team leader.
Y'all got ambushed.
Regroup.
Triage.
Counter offensive.
Bring em home!"
I was thinking how crazy it was that all the men in my family going back to WWI fought in wars, some in multiple! Except me. I was born of war, but couldn't go.
I was at my lowest point, ready to give up and disgrace my family!
A soldier appears with my war, my team and my orders!
I always hated the idea of modern warfare with no clearly defined bad guys.
I mean, I was raised by veterans of WWII, Korea and Vietnam!
Imagine if Covid hadn't occurred as it did, we would not have this otherwise impossible opportunity to wage this war against honest to god Evil-Axis-Baddies.
It's all impossible at worst, unlikely at best.
And yet here we are...